I do think i'm indifferent than others ;
but i can't define myself
most of her friends said she loco,
her 101% of curiosity and laughters can kill them all,
she needs sugar to keep her sane,
she is finding a guy to hold her hand to keep her safe
and sound for the rest of her life,
her biggest wish is her family and friends are happy always.
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but i can't define myself
silhouette
smoke makes me sneeze
I write nuts ;
just so you know
could you please direct me?
Sunday, July 26, 2009 ( 12:06 AM )
insecurity makes me shiver non-stop
it's like a cold,
you cough and sneeze
and hoping it will get away
the very next moment
all we need is a right remedy for it, no?
but sometimes,
a remedy don't get the privilege
maybe a right person
with a special remedy
to take away
the cold from a sick person
i always have doubts in everything
i'm physically a grown up,
i grew taller and stronger
but still
it's hard to move on to the upper stage
her lame lessons learnt
Saturday, July 25, 2009 ( 6:43 PM )
went supper with the family yesterday
had hot and spicy crab with buns *syok
then when i was happily eating the crab
here comes the spoiler
esther: yer..why so hairy eh?
me: duh! sure got some hair wan la
esther: but why? like pubic hair la..
me: -______-
talking to a sibling like that can kill me soon!
i'm a sinner
Friday, July 24, 2009 ( 6:06 PM )
we're human
we make mistakes
we misestimate
we make bad judgements
people get hurt
the old said, it takes 3 years to get humble
and it takes only 3 days to get evil
i'm trying to change not to
judge a book by it's cover
sometimes i just wanna stab myself
cuz my words like knives
but i'm trying my best to change, seriously
to wash away my sins
ice cube my temper
Wednesday, July 22, 2009 ( 4:40 PM )
if you see nuts like a
whole damn galaxy then you're not cool
heard of take it or leave it?
learn it. it makes your life more comfy, i swear
and today is the worst day of the week
jesus christ! everything went upside down
wasted my god damn
energy and time and money
blame the siblings for not refilling the ink tank
and last minute project rushing
anyways, i cut my nails shorter and i feel weird
as if i'm having somebody else's fingers
damn, i don't feel well at all
time to take a siesta!
hold my hand no matter what
Saturday, July 18, 2009 ( 5:42 PM )
people who know me have the same idea
i comment a lot, seriously
i don't know why but something
just pop out of my mind
and i need to speak up to loosen my throat
i can't help it, it's my personality
i will change if anyone can change my mind
anyway, i can't wait to start my solitary college life
a new environment, a new bunch of ppl, a new routine, to run my life
and there's something i still don't get it
when ppl promised you best friends forever
but they hurt you again and again
and i feel sorry for not putting the effort
to get back the pieces of the friendship
just because you think i had affair with your ex,
you think i bitched at the back of you
then you come back to me without feeling sorry at all or flew away without saying anything
seriously, i hate to make commitment nowadays
i'm so afraid to get hurt again and again
because i know too much about this harsh reality life and that's what friend comes and goes
i wanted to clear out what i've been thinking and seriously it hurts a lot
history
Wednesday, July 15, 2009 ( 8:37 PM )
New wounds which are so horribly painful
or old wounds that should have
healed years ago and never did?
Maybe our old wounds teach us something.
They remind us where we've been
and what we've overcome.
They teach us lessons about
what to avoid in the future.
That's what we like to think.
But that's not the way it is
Some things we just have to learn
over and over and over again.
"Some people believe that without history, our lives amount to nothing"
At some point we all have to choose
do we fall back on what we know
or do we step forward to something new?
It's hard not to be haunted by our past.
Our history is what shapes us, what guides us
Our history resurfaces time after time
So we have to remember sometimes the most important history is the history we’re making today
wildlthy day
Tuesday, July 14, 2009 ( 8:27 AM )
i’m having an ineffably healthy day i guess
i woke up at 6.30 to fetch esther then came home and had yogurt due to vanessa’s influence.
then, i went to jog for 30 mins.
you know what, i don’t do neighbor talking at all.
seriously, i can’t stand the gaucheness.
when you smile, they give you the
“omg! Are you an alien?” seriously
i would rather give them a cold dead look
and surprisingly, i saw my grandma’s friend
my grandma passed away when I was form 1
okay, her friend still pink in health!
i didn’t see ghost!!
and the feeling came back,
i miss my grandma a lot.
anyway, I didn’t manage to do my jogging any longer just because my bro, Po!
esther and i called him “Po” just because he looked like kung fu panda.
huge in size but he has a funny personality. LOL
yes, i hate to wake my siblings up.
he wouldn’t even know the next building collapsed and sometimes i need to slam the whole damn door then he will end up dream talking.
so yeah let me enjoy my puffed wheat with milk now and play the goddamn wii alone!
i'm about to get wild since my mother is not around
i need food
Monday, July 13, 2009 ( 9:16 PM )
There's an old proverb that says
you can't choose your family
You take what fate handle you
And like them or not, love them or not,
understand them or not, you cope
then there's the school of thought
that says the family you're born into
is simply a starting point.
they feed you,
No! my mum don't feed me from now on
clothe you, and take care of you
until you're ready to go out into the world.
there you find your own tribe
I wish I can call 999
( 7:31 PM )
You know what's the
worst thing in mothering?
it's that a mother can let her
daughter die of hunger
seriously! and mother likes
to play silence with you
she wouldn't talk to you but just
.....*silence
damn. eating granny smith and
fragrant pears for dinner
is a total moron!
I don't feel healthy at all
and
I wanna die now
Evian ads
Sunday, July 12, 2009 ( 7:53 PM )
mummy, tell me about cinderella!
Thursday, July 9, 2009 ( 12:56 AM )
How i wish i can
have fun just like them
i believe
( 12:39 AM )
king of pop
Wednesday, July 8, 2009 ( 1:48 AM )
well, it's actually a good thing that
Mj's the big star is apart from us
just because God wants Mj to be
with him and stay peacefully
without those frantic media calls
and stories making
i feel really shameful cuz
i just realised how great Mj was
his soft voice and perfect dance steps
can never be replace by others
i'm watching the memorial live on cnn
and when the moment of silence,
all the people shouted michael
you know what, i bet your tears
Mj's the big star is apart from us
just because God wants Mj to be
with him and stay peacefully
without those frantic media calls
and stories making
i feel really shameful cuz
i just realised how great Mj was
his soft voice and perfect dance steps
can never be replace by others
i'm watching the memorial live on cnn
and when the moment of silence,
all the people shouted michael
you know what, i bet your tears
run down like crap
Michael, we love you and we mean it by heart!
may angels be with you and rest in peace <3
Michael, we love you and we mean it by heart!
may angels be with you and rest in peace <3
billie jean is not my lover
Tuesday, July 7, 2009 ( 11:14 AM )
this is the 1011 times,
i'm eating my chee cheong fun with fu chuk
for my daily breakfast, seriously!
And cnn is showing the scene of Mj's
shadow in Neverland, seriously?
Vanessa, i bet you missed that. hah..
anyways, i'm so sick with the monthly bloood!
i feel so unwell with it =(
nice or lies
Sunday, July 5, 2009 ( 2:11 PM )
do you enjoy having a piece of
nicest cake alone?
seriously? when nobody gets one?
i would say i don't!
i would never speed when traffic free
i would rather line up than going to the next lane with a big green light!
i would never go for a set lunch for only 6.90 but a 13.90 and above maybe!
And this ka-ching food industry with bunch of flavorist who tend to flavored everything you had in your stomach!
when it written there fat-free or sugar-free
maybe it contains more carbs than the usual one
just because there's no free lunch in this world!
deggat
Saturday, July 4, 2009 ( 11:24 PM )
1. What have you been doing recently?
trying to be a thinker
2. Do you ever turn your handphone off?
yes, when i feel annoyed
3. What happened at 10 am today?
brushing up myself
4. When did you last cry?
i don't do crying like leconte =P
5. Believe in fate/destiny?
yesh, i'm waiting for my Mr.the-not-left!
6. What do you want in life now?
to be a stronger person
7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
put up my hood just because i've had my best childhood
8. What's your favourite thing to do on bed?
sleep, duh!
9. What bottoms are you wearing now?
lacey boxer
10. What are the nicest things in your inbox?
the nicest thing is when you stop asking me weird questions!
11. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
like how? blend it together?
12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
yeah! the artsy t-shirt i borrowed from lilian during cny party stay over
13. What was the last movie you caught?
haunted school at joey's
14. What are you proud of?
my sister, vanessa!
15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say and who is it from?
joey asked me to online if im not sleepy
16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
if you seek amy by britney
17. Do you have any nicknames?
17. Do you have any nicknames?
ginger, ginseng, genie in the bottle
18. What does the newest text message say and who is it from?
joey sent me life quote
19. What time did you go to sleep last night?
12 i guess after vanessa started Mj's tales during video call
20. Are you currently happy?
not quite just because i'm actually doing this weirdest tag ever
21. Who gives you the best advice?
it depends though
22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
i hate whipped cream
23. Who did you talk to on the phone last night?
lilian
24. Is something bugging you right now?
yes i was wondering should i sleep right now
25. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
my bro's gf cuz she told me tiger is not a vegetarian! LOL
26. Do you like yourself?
why not? weirdo!
27. Do you think you're stupid sometimes?
yes, partially
28. Who is your best friend?
bitches
29. What will you do if you like that boy?
keep thinking of him
30. Who are your favourite stars?
twinkle little star
31. You hate your mother sometimes in some ways?
yes, i would like to scream like no tomorrow
32. Do you even had a stead before?
not really
33. What type of boy you like?
fair guy with thick eyebrow
34. Now, are you single or attached?
single, duh!
tag those weirdos who just like me! X)
damn. can anyone define my feelings?
( 8:56 PM )
I hate being in a big crowd
the more people around
the more alone myself
my heart starts to wander until
i can't recall i'm actually in my reality life.
i know i shouldn't take life that seriously
cuz it's not permanent anyway
but when things get harder
your heart burning with doubts
until the always right, no longer right
and the always wrong, no longer wrong
it's not about being agitated in this frenzy life,
it's about the outcome that we made
it's about the choices that we made
it's about you don't put the blame on others but yourself for not putting real effort for it.
it's about how you perceive yourself in life with different judgements
How i wish god can make me a stronger person
living in this what you guys called life.
My strenght of rejection
Friday, July 3, 2009 ( 4:42 PM )
St.Cloud has denied my application
reason - you never demonstrated the academic ability
to be successful at St.Cloud.
well, i'm definitely not okay after my knowledge
that they denied me.
But all i know is i can't sit on my bench
and cry like a loser and keep stomping non-stop,
thinking that maybe they would give me another
chance. no, NO WAY!
I felt so upset that i've been looking forward to
go to America and start my bloody new life
and get over my bloody trashy stuff.
And i don't wanna upset my mum and pretended
like i'm nothing at all.
But seriously, i'm perfectly fine now.
After so many are you okay?
Thanks for the hearty asking, ppl!
Lastly, i'm going back to college again!
With my self-motivation i swear!
p/s: I'm so glad that Joey is fine! =)
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Adeline Alyssa Emily Esther Eunice Hadley Jacklyn Jasmine Joey Joyce Juliet Karen Kayi Leconte Lilian Ming Li Prisca Rina Rine Sarah Suet Meng Tatt Mun
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escape from insanity
Adeline Alyssa Emily Esther Eunice Hadley Jacklyn Jasmine Joey Joyce Juliet Karen Kayi Leconte Lilian Ming Li Prisca Rina Rine Sarah Suet Meng Tatt Mun
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