I do think i'm indifferent than others ;
but i can't define myself
most of her friends said she loco,
her 101% of curiosity and laughters can kill them all,
she needs sugar to keep her sane,
she is finding a guy to hold her hand to keep her safe
and sound for the rest of her life,
her biggest wish is her family and friends are happy always.
Blog l Facebook l Msn
but i can't define myself
silhouette
smoke makes me sneeze
I write nuts ;
just so you know
Moronismakesitougher
Thursday, April 30, 2009 ( 10:05 PM )
I thought you were different..
like seriously different from others!
sigh. maybe i was over reacted
I know there's no way for the apology crap!
and i miss those days when we were having fun together
we used to like good friends to hang out with.
i'm really sorry for the
i-didn't-know-what-to-do-so-i-just-escaped-alone
and i know the feeling right now that being ignored
when i came from nowhere and
so happened to make my apology to freaked you out!
jesus christ! nothing worse than that!
I am really sorry for giving you a hard time.
Judge me, your wish!
Tuesday, April 28, 2009 ( 9:31 PM )
They named me crazy
but i prefer Cheesy
If you can't see any
you don't know what called funny
afterall, it's just plain ME!
wtf. look at this crap! -__-
Oops! Is that jas?
( 7:16 PM )
I bumped into Jasmine at gardens. LOL
while I was waiting for my mum and sis.
she didn't know until I called her.
we both were so anxious about our application status =(
anyways, all the best and good luck for ur finals, Jas!
hopefully, we could update each other good news real sooon!
note to L: u're really a bad liar and let's have party! =)
Britain's got plenty of talent!
( 8:31 AM )
It's really amazing with such high pitch
Hollie's my another favourite
It seems a new makeover is not enough, susan.
deeply S-O-R-R-Y!
( 12:27 AM )
It took me really long
to have the courage to talk to you!
I know maybe it's too late for me to do that
or maybe you just don't bother anymore BUT I DO!
I've been struggling around and
I just realised that i'm being too selfish!
I don't hope for anything and i'm really sorry..
PSYed me up!
Monday, April 27, 2009 ( 8:35 PM )
I had movie with Joyce and Rine!
we watched The Uninvited..
I'm really sorry, joyce!
If i ever made u mad at me for not telling u at first!
LOL. I promised i'm not gonna tell lies again..
well, on the other way.. it made sense too!
The movie is not some kind of typical horror movie.
It teaches us how a mentally ill person can seriously
made up the whole story itself..
somehow, the story line kinda impressed me.
anyways, i gotta bath right now.
the weather is killing me.. it makes me feel sticky!
and sticky really gross me out!
Twins, NOT!
Saturday, April 25, 2009 ( 12:17 AM )
Deputy principal of the school
Mr. Joachim: Hey how's your sis?
esther: well, she's great! still waiting for the application review
Mr. Joachim: you know what? whenever i see you, i see your sister..
One of my favourite twosome
Lec: eh, you and your sis damn look alike
Me: why?
Lec: she added me in facebook, i thought it was you..
even My youngest sibling
Anne: jie, come and watch this (some series on disney channel)
Me: ignoring..* (I was busy doing my stuff and had my back facing her)
Anne: jie, u heard me?
Me: what..?
Anne: oh i thought you were esther..
Application status: review of documents
Friday, April 24, 2009 ( 11:15 AM )
Thanks to CIS for the update of my application status!
so yeah gotta wait for the review now..
Hopefully i got accepted same goes to Jasmine!
I'm praying hard, really hard!
I'm gonna share the burden with Vanessa
and i guess i'm ready for it.
God, do bless me for this very moment.
Cut me. surgeon!
Wednesday, April 22, 2009 ( 8:42 PM )
I went to see my very own dentist in the afternoon
Sometimes I think God hates me...
hates me until my dentist tell me that
I have 2 wisdom teeth at the bottom left and right
The same case for both, lies down horizontally.
I was like WHAT-THE-HECK? are u kidding me?
I need to extract the bottom left first.
that means not long the bottom right
gonna pop out and say hi to me! -__-
seriously, the pain is crazy! can die wey
as if someone trying to cut you with blade
slowly then u can bleed and die!
I need to wait until 4th of may for my tiny little surgery
open up my mouth for 1 hr
like a retard salivaring non-stop!
My gosh! what world is this?
I tot nowadays they can simply do everything
in silent mode and without u to see the whole process?
tsk! can't wait to act like a retard and extract my fugly wisdom tooth!
What the FOOD!
( 11:27 AM )
Roar. The food feed me ceaselessly.
I wish I can have a mild fever or flu so that
I can stop eating for just a little while!
christ. I'm a total work out failure.
I sleep, I eat, I sleep and I eat and
they goes my routine -__-
You are under my spell
Tuesday, April 21, 2009 ( 2:03 AM )
I dreamt of Merlin.
All i know, it is a british television series.
The main character named Merlin then end of story.
he's a talented sorcerer who attempts to
keep his powers secret and will one day
become the greatest wizard in the world.
It says that to see a particular actor or actress
in your dream
look at the role they are playing
it consider also who this actor/actress is and
what characteristics you associate with him or her
These may be the same characteristics that
you need to acknowledge or incorporate into yourself.
great! a wizard who do magic
that sounds a little too much! LOL
I wish I could invent a time machine!
( 12:51 AM )
I'm chatting with joey in msn
It's been a while since I'm not a msn person
unless talking to vanessa early in the morning
not much spamming just some virus
(Leconte! ur diet/some flirty msg are killing me!)
anyways the conversation is hilarious
it reminds me of the past
how we used to be, like a big kid!
it's hard to believe that we are having college life now
and few steps away from the harsh reality!
sigh. life just not fun at all
the learning process in life is really expensive
which we can't afford for it's theory
so try to maximise happiness and stop being negative
and all day long u have good smile! =)
Wisdom tooth
Monday, April 20, 2009 ( 6:10 PM )
I'm always a winner
when comes to bumpy situation
I won a lottery
I went to a dentist today, randomly
I just wanna check if i have cavity
then i stepped in for consultation with Dr.Robert
Doc: what's wrong with you?
Me: err..i think i need an extraction!
Doc: extraction..?
(smiling)
Me: well, i'm not sure is this a wisdom tooth..
(pointing at my wisdom tooth)
Doc: yeah, that's the wisdom tooth! how long u've been in pain?
Me: err..not long! several months...
Doc: so long and u don't bother to find a dentist?
Me: (keep smiling to get out of embarrassment)
Doc: i think u need to get an x-ray for it..
(laughing)
Me: hopefully i don't have a funny tooth
(self wondering)
Doc: no big deal actually! it takes about 1 hr for the surgery..
Me: huh?
(that's a little VERY long!)
Doc: well, as u can see ur wisdom tooth lies down
horizontally so i need to cut it half and extract the remainder.
Me: oh okay, so i need to make appointment for the surgery again?
Doc: yeah and it cost 950 for that!
Me: okay, i will make an appointment then! Thanks doc!
It seems my wisdom tooth is not that wise after all
when comes to bumpy situation
I won a lottery
I went to a dentist today, randomly
I just wanna check if i have cavity
then i stepped in for consultation with Dr.Robert
Doc: what's wrong with you?
Me: err..i think i need an extraction!
Doc: extraction..?
(smiling)
Me: well, i'm not sure is this a wisdom tooth..
(pointing at my wisdom tooth)
Doc: yeah, that's the wisdom tooth! how long u've been in pain?
Me: err..not long! several months...
Doc: so long and u don't bother to find a dentist?
Me: (keep smiling to get out of embarrassment)
Doc: i think u need to get an x-ray for it..
(laughing)
Me: hopefully i don't have a funny tooth
(self wondering)
Doc: no big deal actually! it takes about 1 hr for the surgery..
Me: huh?
(that's a little VERY long!)
Doc: well, as u can see ur wisdom tooth lies down
horizontally so i need to cut it half and extract the remainder.
Me: oh okay, so i need to make appointment for the surgery again?
Doc: yeah and it cost 950 for that!
Me: okay, i will make an appointment then! Thanks doc!
It seems my wisdom tooth is not that wise after all
When everyone starts to bite!
Sunday, April 19, 2009 ( 10:14 PM )
I wanted to watch T R U E BLOOD
which i've been missing it so many times
but i just found out that i need to contact astro
for getting the holy magazine!
I know it's freaking long ago...
come on. I didn't know what happened
since the day my mum find
Amy winehouse with hairspray and go to rehab
for doing drugs and drinking problem and started
to count how many children were adopted by Brangelina !
The monthly fee cost about 190 plus almost 200
and we were asked to fill up the crap
and it takes 2 mths time to reach us..
Hello? Are you OUT OF YOUR MIND?
What kind of service you were offering?
You are not the satellite!
I still can live without your filthy ancient drama!
And im gonna cancel some stupid channel
which seriously i didn't know some were ever existed
which i've been missing it so many times
but i just found out that i need to contact astro
for getting the holy magazine!
I know it's freaking long ago...
come on. I didn't know what happened
since the day my mum find
Amy winehouse with hairspray and go to rehab
for doing drugs and drinking problem and started
to count how many children were adopted by Brangelina !
The monthly fee cost about 190 plus almost 200
and we were asked to fill up the crap
and it takes 2 mths time to reach us..
Hello? Are you OUT OF YOUR MIND?
What kind of service you were offering?
You are not the satellite!
I still can live without your filthy ancient drama!
And im gonna cancel some stupid channel
which seriously i didn't know some were ever existed
Mc Dreamy!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009 ( 6:22 PM )
I can't think of my dream last night
i'm preparing myself a dream's journal =p
Maybe i was too conscious to figure out what it is about
Do you know that every single of our dream
meant something to us?
It gives us the opportunity
To express ourselves without conscious
It comes naturally when we have no control over
with what we are thinking
According to the expert,
we have around 5 d r e a m s each night
That's alot, isn't it?
anyways, what i dreamt recently was creepy enough.
It says that my enermy is running into me
for something bad or good, either way.
Not that i aware of..
Then i will be meeting up with my friends which is true
and im gonna strike a jackpot or jump into a hotpot!
ummm..that's bad ! time taken. wish me luck! =(
More like a she than he
( 11:34 AM )
Okay. Check my previous post below!
I watched oprah show few days ago.
They were talking about m i d d l e sex
To be precise, i n t e r sex would be a better word.
They were invited in person.
I was really impressed that they willing to share their personal stuff
which is really hard for them
seriously, how sad if we were one of them!
There's one of them, when he was born,
the doctor mentioned is a 'he', when he grew up,
he still appear as more feminine rather than masculine
but both of the doctor and mother
were insisted that he is a boy.
Now, he was a step-father of a child and
he did say that 'gay' best described him
I was thinking scientific proven itself
is not enough to say it all
A person's mind mentally/emotionally
not always in a constant state
so yeah it can hardly identify oneself by appearance
Are you STRAIGHT or you find BI a little sexier?
Saturday, April 11, 2009 ( 9:03 PM )
hmmm.. i was wondering is he gay..
don't get me wrong! i'm not some kind of racist!
i'm so cool with it! right!
well, there's this crap stuck between my mind covered with cranium!!
what will you do
if you're dating a bf and he dumped you
cuz he found himself is gay?
...it's really a question
(definitely NOT my story.. i'm still solo)
Gays (lesbians) are men (women) who are attracted to other men (women)
It can be a p h y s i c a l , e m o t i o n a l or s e x u a l attraction
If you’re a man attracted to man, you might be a gay
Or you might be bisexual or you might simply be a straight man who is attracted to a friend
It may take you some time to determine which one you are
Generally, if you're attracted to both sexes and not necessarily
physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually
then you're some degree of bisexual
Bi isn't always 50/50; anything along the scale usually counts
okay, it gets a little confuse right now
but sexual orientation is a way too deep insight
really mysterious and unpredictable
don't get me wrong! i'm not some kind of racist!
i'm so cool with it! right!
well, there's this crap stuck between my mind covered with cranium!!
what will you do
if you're dating a bf and he dumped you
cuz he found himself is gay?
...it's really a question
(definitely NOT my story.. i'm still solo)
Gays (lesbians) are men (women) who are attracted to other men (women)
It can be a p h y s i c a l , e m o t i o n a l or s e x u a l attraction
If you’re a man attracted to man, you might be a gay
Or you might be bisexual or you might simply be a straight man who is attracted to a friend
It may take you some time to determine which one you are
Generally, if you're attracted to both sexes and not necessarily
physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually
then you're some degree of bisexual
Bi isn't always 50/50; anything along the scale usually counts
okay, it gets a little confuse right now
but sexual orientation is a way too deep insight
really mysterious and unpredictable
Muted night
( 3:00 AM )
I miss my piggy..
she went over my littlest piggy's a.k.a my youngest sis
oh..in case of anyone of you who is not clear with what i'm talking about..
i'm in very complicated family. crystal clear?
so yeah i bet they are having fun rite now and
she went over my littlest piggy's a.k.a my youngest sis
oh..in case of anyone of you who is not clear with what i'm talking about..
i'm in very complicated family. crystal clear?
so yeah i bet they are having fun rite now and
yet im blogging alone
nobody bugs me
no questions
no comments
no hunch-ing
no questions
no comments
no hunch-ing
both of us have the feeling of hunch on each other
we have the same thoughts/ feelings/ taste/ Deja vu and
as careless as i am
it was an incident on yesterday,
i asked her to take off her con's and put on her pj's
when i'm ready to jump on my bed
so she did as i told
then i found out this morning
that she misplaced her con's at my container
instead of her own so she washed away mine
and damn it was my very last pair
that's why i need to dr ag myself to bangsar today
and get myself a new set
christ! my leftie increased 75 again!
add-up total
im gonna screw myself
oh it's 3 in the middle of the nite
time to bed
count and sleep! =)
toodles
we have the same thoughts/ feelings/ taste/ Deja vu and
as careless as i am
it was an incident on yesterday,
i asked her to take off her con's and put on her pj's
when i'm ready to jump on my bed
so she did as i told
then i found out this morning
that she misplaced her con's at my container
instead of her own so she washed away mine
and damn it was my very last pair
that's why i need to dr ag myself to bangsar today
and get myself a new set
christ! my leftie increased 75 again!
add-up total
im gonna screw myself
oh it's 3 in the middle of the nite
time to bed
count and sleep! =)
toodles
God never let me down
Wednesday, April 8, 2009 ( 4:35 PM )
Bloody, can you frigging leave me alone!
I just hate your monthly visit!
like seriously, wasting money and time to handle you..
why girls need to handle all these? isn't it cheesy?
goodness! im playing if i were a boy on my itunes -.-
so yeah, i got my toefl for 75! guess my listening section screwed it..
it was rather too low.. yeah i'm brainless!
i'm always an average scorer no matter how darn loads of effort i put in.
i don't know why i can't just be like a n e r d
(with spec and carry a heavy backpack)
however, i will still try my best to squeeze my potential out..as if!
so yeah wish me luck and im gonna pray double hard!
Thank g o d for giving me a hand and patience and that makes me feel so grateful! =)
Fire extinguisher can't put down the fire!
Tuesday, April 7, 2009 ( 11:48 PM )
sometimes i tried so hard to control my temper
but when things didn't turn up how you wanted..
it's like a force to keeps you alert and you wanna scream out really LOUD!
who on earth wanna scream like a mad dog?
seriously, what do you think if someone accused you for doing something stupid?
cut the crap and scream straight with your frown and wrinkles all over face
that's a common reaction! not some rocket science. roar!!
but when things didn't turn up how you wanted..
it's like a force to keeps you alert and you wanna scream out really LOUD!
who on earth wanna scream like a mad dog?
seriously, what do you think if someone accused you for doing something stupid?
cut the crap and scream straight with your frown and wrinkles all over face
that's a common reaction! not some rocket science. roar!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY !
Saturday, April 4, 2009 ( 2:29 PM )
gain some weight
I heard you're not over 100Ibs
gotcha!
Thursday, April 2, 2009 ( 12:03 AM )
It's april fool day! nah..i totally forget about it!
I can't recall the whole conversation but partially edited..
Joey: hey!!
Me: helloo..
Joey: eh, why i can't call u ar? i called you like so many times..
Me: really..?! i don't know..
Joey: I think got problem lah.. anyway Leconte is finding you so you better call him back..
Me: he's finding me? oh okay.. i call him then! bye
calling leconte..
Me: hey..*was waiting him to say something
lec: hey, what's up?
Me: err.. i thought you called me?!
lec: no, i didn't..why?
Me: err.. okay! I don't know! the woman called me and tell me that you're finding me..
Lec: no..! eh,stupid! u know ur ringtone.. my mum was asking me whose phone is that?
Me: hahaha...
then we just realised that we got fooled!
p/s: woman, grow up a bit! we are like 19 this year!
lec, you should be honoured with my lovely customised ringtone!
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